When I made it back from Australia I received a text from a friend saying that she had a a breakdown!! I asked more about what was going on and she basically said that she wish she had the freedom I had when it comes to traveling! I got really upset because her life is perfect…I mean she’s my life idol!! I had to get an interpretation from another friend to understand because from my point of view….my life isn’t amazing enough for someone to want! Basically it was interpreted that successful people have tunnel vision, they’re in a box, etc. They are instilled with the American dream from kids so they normally get a degree or 2, buy a house, get married, have kids, and live happily ever after while people like me are circles that don’t easily fit into anyone’s box!

I randomly asked a few. people that had my dream life lol (married w/ kids) were they happy?? Is it everything you thought it would be?? And while all of them agreed that they loved their spouse and kids most of them wished that they would have either waited longer or they wish they hadn’t made the commitments at all!! That was heartbreaking for me!! It’s like finding out Santa wasn’t real and my grandma was really the tooth fairy!! I’ve spent so many thoughts, prayers, tears, wishes, etc on that exact life…the life they have but would switch out of in a second if they had the opportunity!! 

We’ve all be programmed with how life should be. Those of us who go astray have thoughts and what ifs on what life could have been while the people that followed the programming have the same thoughts and what ifs. I say we all just say fuck it and make do and find happiness with the life we have🤷🏾‍♀️ but it’s not that simple!!


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