Social Media Rehab

It’s been 2 weeks since I’ve deactivated Instagram and Facebook and a few hours since I finally let Snapchat go😩😩 my goal is to completely let go of it for good!! What was once a fun way to interact with strangers and meet new people is now a headache!! Social media has altered reality so now how things are perceived via social media is what others believe is our reality!! 
Our body goals, life goals, travel goals, relationship goals are all influenced by other peoples “social media realities.”
 I read an article somewhere that stated that social media is now a leading cause of depression and other mental health issues!! Children are growing up believing their life is only validated by likes and followers! You can call a friend nowadays and wish them happy birthday and later get chewed out because you didn’t tell them via social mediaπŸ˜’
I’ve found myself interrupting a perfect moment because I needed to snap real quick πŸ€¦πŸΎβ€β™€οΈ And this is not new problem for me…I was using AOL cds to get onto black planet 15 years agoπŸ˜‚ MzBrittney_lsd was my screen name πŸ˜©πŸ˜‚πŸ€¦πŸΎβ€β™€οΈ social media has always been fun for me…it’s always been my thing!! But at some point enough is enough. I recently had an incident in a Facebook group were a guy I was talking to got caught in a lie…a grown 30 something year old man at that point gets to name calling and bullying!! …because he’s a bad liarπŸ€” it was at that point that I reached my enough point! I had allowed a person that I didn’t know, that meant nothing to me to hurt my feelings, make me question myself, had me defending my character to other people I don’t know!! Wasted time and energy!! Yep, enough is enough!
My goal in the end is to have more meaningful social interactions because right now my social life (outside of traveling) consists of liking and commenting on people’s pictures! There’s a great need to do better. 


When I made it back from Australia I received a text from a friend saying that she had a a breakdown!! I asked more about what was going on and she basically said that she wish she had the freedom I had when it comes to traveling! I got really upset because her life is perfect…I mean she’s my life idol!! I had to get an interpretation from another friend to understand because from my point of view….my life isn’t amazing enough for someone to want! Basically it was interpreted that successful people have tunnel vision, they’re in a box, etc. They are instilled with the American dream from kids so they normally get a degree or 2, buy a house, get married, have kids, and live happily ever after while people like me are circles that don’t easily fit into anyone’s box!

I randomly asked a few. people that had my dream life lol (married w/ kids) were they happy?? Is it everything you thought it would be?? And while all of them agreed that they loved their spouse and kids most of them wished that they would have either waited longer or they wish they hadn’t made the commitments at all!! That was heartbreaking for me!! It’s like finding out Santa wasn’t real and my grandma was really the tooth fairy!! I’ve spent so many thoughts, prayers, tears, wishes, etc on that exact life…the life they have but would switch out of in a second if they had the opportunity!! 

We’ve all be programmed with how life should be. Those of us who go astray have thoughts and what ifs on what life could have been while the people that followed the programming have the same thoughts and what ifs. I say we all just say fuck it and make do and find happiness with the life we haveπŸ€·πŸΎβ€β™€οΈ but it’s not that simple!!

Around the World in 17 DaysΒ 

Journey start date: April 15, 2017

Journey end date: May 2, 2017

5 continents visited: North America, Europe, Africa, Asia, and Australia

7 cities: Houston, Amsterdam, CapeTown, Johannesburg, Dubai, Sydney, Los Angeles

Travel time: 54 hours flying and 20 hours on a bus 

Hostels: Amsterdam -ClinkNOORD , CapeTown- 91 Loop, Dubai- At The Top, Sydney- Bondi Backpackers 

Amsterdam- 4/16-18 the flight from Amsterdam was amazing. The flight attendants knew we were crew and delivered amazing service. The weather was cold and rainy. Overall beautiful city and on the more expensive side. We arrived early in the am and caught the train and a ferry  from the airport to the hostel. The hostel overall was really nice but in a inconvenient location, had to catch the ferry to get to the city. It also didn’t include free breakfast but did offer a free walking tour daily. Food on a whole was really good. We didn’t do any real touristy things other than take pictures near the iAmsterdam sign.​

​​​​​CapeTown- 4/18-23 What an adventure πŸ€¦πŸΎβ€β™€οΈπŸ˜‚ The weather in Capetown was beautiful, warm and sunny!! We arrived kinda late so we caught an Uber from the airport to the hostel. The hostel was conveniently located, staff was amazing, offered free breakfast, and cheap. The city is beautiful full of mountains and bordered by the ocean. We were warned that things could be sketchy so always stow your phone and valuables but we didn’t actually have any threats or problems. Food was amazing but that’s where this becomes an adventureπŸ˜‚ about day 2 or 3 I ate something that my body didn’t like and got really sick!! I’ll spare you the details but I’ll say even if advised it’s ok DO NOT DRINK THE TAP WATER!! I ate a bunch of local food and a bunch of fish and chips. We did a bunch of walking around but we also did a few touristy things. We visited The Cape of Good Hope, Cape Point, Bo Kaap, The Penguins, and Table Top Mountain. We also hung out with some locals at a club for reggae night….I was drunk and it was LIT! lol I extended my stay because I was to sick to leave when I was supposed to . Overall CapeTown was the most meaningful part of the trip for me…a lot of lessons of humanity and my first time getting sick while traveling.
The journey from CapeTown to Johannesburg was a longgggggg one! I ended sitting next to a local who was traveling to JoBurg to go to the embassy and apply for a passport. Really nice guy but after 20 hours on a bus I was convinced he was bat shit crazy!! Our encounter started with him being in my seat and ended with him telling me how deep in love he was with me and wanting to know when he would see me again because his heart can’t go on without me πŸ˜³πŸ€·πŸΎβ€β™€οΈπŸ€¦πŸΎβ€β™€οΈ  he offered me a muffin that he pulled from his pocket and was super hurt when I declined. On our first refreshment stop he got some chocolate for me and basically just wanted to watch me it. In the middle of the night it got really cold and I woke up covered in all his sweaters and jackets, he had basically unpacked his bag on me πŸ˜©πŸ˜‚ other than that the scenery was beautiful but my phone was dead so he ended up being my only entertainment πŸ˜’ I made another friend, Peter, at the bus station in Capetown  once we made it to JoBurg I ran into him again and he saved me from paying my life savings on an Uber to the airport by showing me where and how to catch the train. We talked along the train ride and he ended up being a really nice guy (as everyone I came in contact with was)! I made it to the airport and was able to change my flight to an earlier one, it was time for Dubai!!! 

Humanity- the quality of being humane; benevolence.

I expected to learn a lot from my first trip to the motherland….I didn’t know humanity would be the biggest lesson!!
A few days into the trip I became really…really sick. By day 3 I had requested an uber and was heading to the ER!! I got in the uber and asked if there was an ER closer than the one I had selected…Mogammad looked and me and said, “you look healthy” lol I told him what was wrong and he told me the hospital would just take my money “I’m taking you to the pharmacy, you need green tea and black seeds” 😳 well ok sureπŸ˜©πŸ˜‚πŸ˜© all 3 pharmacies were sold out!! In the Muslim community it is said that black seeds will cure anything except death…and that’s that the prophet Mohammad had used for all his illnesses!! 

So after 3 unsuccessful Pharmacy attempts he called his mom…we then drove 30 minutes across town to his mother’s house where she met us at the door with 2 bags of black seeds!! Where’s the humanity in this?? He was at work just doing his job…he could have easily made his 25Rand and dropped me off but instead he turned the uber trip off and did everything in his power to be sure that I got what I needed and make sure I was ok…even stopping to let me use the restroom when I needed to!! 
I’m sure you thinking, how crazy am I to take health advice and venture off with a stranger in a foreign country by myself…energy is rea!! Vibes are real!! …and I still believe that people, as a whole, have good intentions!! 
The day before this my new bunk-mate in the hostel saw me coming out of the restroom and immediately asked what she could get for me. I was out of rand so I gave her a debit card…I knew I was dehydrated so I just told her water and alka seltzer. She came back with more than I had asked for and told me she had used her own money to buy everything since she got stuff that I didn’t ask for!! This is someone who I had only met a few hours before. It really makes my heart smile to know that people still care!! …that people are still compassionate!!! 
There’s not a single person that I’ve come in contact with on this trip that didn’t remind me that we are still human…that we all have feelings and we all MATTER!! Between the civil unjust and new president in America it makes it hard to remember that before anything else we are humans!! It’s just really refreshing to see that there are everyday humanitarians among us!!!

The Things Money CANT Buy!!!

So nobody was going to tell me I was out here buying loveπŸ€¦πŸΎβ€β™€οΈ?? I remember when Mookie (my childhood best friend) moved next door to us…I was about 9!! We were doing the typical kid bragging. She had the Barbie plane but I one up’d her by having the Barbie Jeep AND the Barbie Boat!! She made an offer “let me have them and I’ll be your friend” so here I am saying my final goodbyes and crying my face off when my grandma spotted me and wanted to know why the hell I was crying 😩😭 “Mookie said she won’t be my friend unless I give her my Barbie Jeep and Boat” if you know me then you know my grandma and you KNOW she cursed Mookie tf out “fuck her you don’t need no friends ” πŸ˜©πŸ˜‚πŸ˜© I think that was the start of it!! I’ve given so much shit away for the sake of being liked/loved or having a friend!! But it just recently dawned on me that over the years I’ve been doing the same things with men and relationships!! In college there was Taj…I bought shoes, iPhones, etc , then there was Simon I bought plane tickets, guns, etc ….and most recently there was “B” I was actually about to add him to my flight benefits before I found out he really didn’t even like me….and this is after I got him gifts for Valentine’s Day and didn’t get anything in return!!
I honestly had no idea I was doing this!! My gestures have always came from a genuine place and my intentions have always been good!! The crazy part is these are characters of my mom!! She didn’t really know how to love anyone but she’d buy the shit out of some gifts!! I recognized early on that material things would never fill the void of companionship but subconsciously I’ve been filling voids with material shit!! I don’t regret the things I’ve given but it makes me sad that I didn’t realize early on how amazing my presence was….whole time I was the gift and didn’t know it!! πŸ’πŸΎπŸ‘ΈπŸΎπŸ˜Ž 

It’s so important that we let young girls know that they are gifts!! There’s no gift or amount of money that exceeds self-worth!!! There’s nothing she has to give because she is the gift of life itself!!! This needs to be said WE need to hear it, recognize, etc… I could have saved much damn money bruhπŸ€¦πŸΎβ€β™€οΈπŸ˜©πŸ˜­πŸ˜‚

Seriously…what are we??

About a week ago i posted a joke on Facebook asking when was the right time to ask “what are we” πŸ˜©πŸ˜‚ everyone  answered NEVER!!  So today I’m scrolling and I see a guy that posted a status saying the girls he’s been dating asked him to be her boyfriend but he declined stating that he needs to work on himself and finish getting his life together before committing πŸ€” about 20 comments later I determined that they’ve been doing couple shit…I mean the whole nine sex, dates, etc and the truth was he just wasn’t that in to her!! That’s makes me sad because I’ve been “her” before!! I look at it like this…if your job offers you a position that requires you to have a masters but you’re a few courses away and they know but they see the potential in you so they offer you the position anyway….you wouldn’t decline and say that you aren’t finish working on yourself !!
But there really is no way to get out of the grey area!! Sometimes the vibe in chemistry is perfect but you’re just coasting without a destination!! Titles aren’t everything but it’s great to know if I should be investing and building or just having fun!! I think that misconception fucks things up too…girls can def have fun and date without getting emotionally involved…things just have to be in black and white and the grey areas avoided!! 
I once dated a guy and we damn near lived together…he was either at my place or I was at his, we had movie night atleast once a week, gifted each other with things, and had “next level” sex….but when it came down to it I was crazy for being in my feelings when I found out I was just the homieπŸ˜©πŸ˜‚πŸ˜©πŸ˜‚ the truth is it was all my fault!! I never asked…I just assumed because things were so smooth…like I couldnt have asked for a better boyfriend except he wasn’t my boyfriend πŸ€¦πŸΎβ€β™€οΈ so basically you have to choose when you’d like to be crazy…in the beginning by asking “what are we” or at the end when you find out he’s just not that into you!! 
It’s very important not to assume that just because someone wants something that the want it with you!!! That same guy preaches the story of him wanting a wife and kids…and I played that role to the best of my ability only for it to not be what he wanted…confused?? Yeah me too😩 but that’s not the worse part!! When it was time to be honest and face the monster he created (I needed answers) he said that his reason for not wanting more with me was because my tattoos… “my family is really conservative” oh and because i moved from Dallas to New Orleans then back to Dallas…that’s a sign that I’m not stable😐 ohhhh ok makes sense…or not!!! But I digress😏 
I said all that to say…be crazy early on!! Lay guidelines, set expectations, have standards, and believe what he tells you!! You don’t want to end up like #hurtbae loving a man that obviously has no respect for you!! Love yourself so much that a guy has to battle you to get a little of your heart!!! Your relationship with yourself is the best example you can set when it comes to how you want to be treated!! 

Dear Future Husband

Dear Future Husband,
I hope that you are preparing yourself for me as I am preparing myself for you!! I’ve dreamed of you my entire life….and if you’re reading this then dreams really do come true!! I’d like you to know that I may be difficult, unintentionally of course. I have not yet witnessed love it’s pure form…I have practiced a few times but they weren’t you so it didn’t work! I’ve been a sucker for friends my entire life but I hope you’re ok with being my best friend above all else!! I promise to always laugh at your corny jokes and cheer for your team unless you’re a Cowboys fan…but then again I know God wouldn’t send me a Cowboys fan!! Lol I hope I find you while we are both young enough to have kids…it’s very important to me to have a few kids that have my eyes, your nose, my laugh, your charm, and probably your hair but we can decide on that part later. I like the names Bailey and Brody but I’ll take your input into consideration 😜 but before kids I’d like to travel with you…that’s when I’m my freest self!! The world has so much to offer and I hope that you are willing to take advantage of it with me!! I hope that your into doing dishes….I love cooking but dishes aren’t my strong point!! I enjoy kissing and cuddling and I WIll rub my feet on you when I’m cold!! I hope you enjoy art but also enjoy trap music!! It would be nice if you had a huge family my family is tiny so it would be great to get a feel of the huge family life!! Please choose mayo over miracle whip and be really into seafood!! I’m terrible with budgeting so please know that the family budget is all your job!! I plan on being a flight attendant for the rest of my life so I’ll need you to independent enough to survive when I’m away but dependent enough to need me when I’m home!! Oh, when we have kids please plan to gain weight with me…teamwork baby🀘🏾 I know that you’ll be patient enough with me to get through my bad days….as you’ve be patient enough to find me!! And when I say bad days I mean the days where my only child syndrome gets the best of me or days when I feel fat and I’m just not happy with anything or anyone πŸ˜©πŸ˜‚ I know relationships are 50/50 deals but understand that when it comes to driving that will be your job %100 of the time πŸ€·πŸΎβ€β™€οΈ If there is ever a point in our relationship that you feel like you want to see other people…talk to me I’m sure we can work it out or if not I can do different wigs, change my accent, and role play!!πŸ˜‚πŸ˜© I plan on being your biggest fan in all of your endeavors!! Although society has changed I hope that you still acknowledge gender roles!! I’m not really good at being dependent or submissive but by the time you get to me I’m sure I’ll have it together!! I have no rhythm so I hope you do for the kids sake!! When I fall asleep on the plane understand that it is your job to get me a drink and food…always choose the chicken option!! I look forward to connecting with you mentally, physically, spiritually, and emotionally!! I understand that your past is your past….but when you’re ready for me just be sure you’re done with them!! In my mind you’re so strong, so brave, so caring ,so bold….with just the right amount of sensitive!! I pray that we’ll be equally yoked. Do know that there’s no way out…there’s no quitting , giving up, giving in, or getting tired!! No breaks, no recess, no intermission….just consider me your forever fight!! I haven’t met you but I can already tell I love you more than anything in the world!!
With love, 

Your Future Wife