Social Media Rehab

It’s been 2 weeks since I’ve deactivated Instagram and Facebook and a few hours since I finally let Snapchat go๐Ÿ˜ฉ๐Ÿ˜ฉ my goal is to completely let go of it for good!! What was once a fun way to interact with strangers and meet new people is now a headache!! Social media has altered reality so now how things are perceived via social media is what others believe is our reality!! 
Our body goals, life goals, travel goals, relationship goals are all influenced by other peoples “social media realities.”
 I read an article somewhere that stated that social media is now a leading cause of depression and other mental health issues!! Children are growing up believing their life is only validated by likes and followers! You can call a friend nowadays and wish them happy birthday and later get chewed out because you didn’t tell them via social media๐Ÿ˜’
I’ve found myself interrupting a perfect moment because I needed to snap real quick ๐Ÿคฆ๐Ÿพโ€โ™€๏ธ And this is not new problem for me…I was using AOL cds to get onto black planet 15 years ago๐Ÿ˜‚ MzBrittney_lsd was my screen name ๐Ÿ˜ฉ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿคฆ๐Ÿพโ€โ™€๏ธ social media has always been fun for me…it’s always been my thing!! But at some point enough is enough. I recently had an incident in a Facebook group were a guy I was talking to got caught in a lie…a grown 30 something year old man at that point gets to name calling and bullying!! …because he’s a bad liar๐Ÿค” it was at that point that I reached my enough point! I had allowed a person that I didn’t know, that meant nothing to me to hurt my feelings, make me question myself, had me defending my character to other people I don’t know!! Wasted time and energy!! Yep, enough is enough!
My goal in the end is to have more meaningful social interactions because right now my social life (outside of traveling) consists of liking and commenting on people’s pictures! There’s a great need to do better. 


Valentine’s Day is stupid…or am I just bitter๐Ÿค”

I’ll take bitter for 500 Alex ๐Ÿ˜ฉ๐Ÿ˜‚ this year is no different from any other year on Valentine’s Day for me!! I spent the day on airport alert and then I worked a roundtrip to El Paso!! I didn’t have an official valentine but I do kinda like a guy๐Ÿ™ˆ lol Nothing major but I ordered a few things from Amazon that I knew he would like and just so happened (๐Ÿ˜œ) to have it delivered on Valentine’s Day ๐Ÿคฆ๐Ÿพโ€โ™€๏ธ๐Ÿ˜‚ I think I made his day he wasn’t expecting it and I think he actually liked it!! I mean everyone likes to feel special on days like this (even if the won’t admit it) I finished my trip around 8:30pm and headed to the crashpad. Completely bummed about the day!! Between Instagram and Facebook and all the mushy shit in the airport I was second away from sliding in my exes inbox like “hey bighead, wyd?” ๐Ÿ˜ฉ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜ฉ๐Ÿ˜‚  

I eventually linked up with “the guy” only to see there were no flowers, candy, or cards๐Ÿคฆ๐Ÿพโ€โ™€๏ธ boy was I devastated!! Even tho I had coached myself all day to not expect anything…expecatations still got the best of me๐Ÿ˜ฉ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜ฉ I ended up showering and calling it a night!! 

I’m already coming up with my game plan for Valentine’s Day 2018…stay tuned๐Ÿ˜Ž

What is Normal Anyway๐Ÿค”

I thought I was a normal person living a normal life….until I told my story aloud!!

In my mind I’m a normal 27 that had “different” beginnings….apparently there’s nothing normal about me!! 

Born to teenage parents who were essentially products of their environment. I was born on my dads 17th birthday. Unfortunately he had gotten into some trouble a few months before and was  serving a jail sentence for armed robbery or something of that nature. I mean just imagine being 16 with your second kid on the way…I could imagine his back was to the wall and he did what he felt was necessary!! My mom had a few…or a lot of criminal dealings as well. Growing up the child of a drug addict gives you a different kind of tough skin I’m sure!! She too, to my understanding, did the best she could with the circumstances at hand! For a great deal of her life she sold drugs. I actually remember baby food jars being used to “cook up” crack cocaine using a hot plate!! And all the great shit I got as s kid from addicts selling anything for their next hit! 

So I’ve never really lived with my parents…there’s been times when my mom lived with me and my grandma but I don’t ever recall a time were it was just me and mom or me and dad. My grandmother assumed the role, and did a great job if you ask me, of being my mom! She stayed on drugs until I was about 6…it’s crazy because she still tells the story it’s like she just decided she had to change for me no rehab just prayer and a change of setting! We moved from Algiers to Marrero and things were uphill from there!!

Growing up is when I kinda felt different…all of my friends lived with their parents. And to make matters worse I was the only child by my mom so I really didn’t have anyone to relate, no one shared my struggle…that I knew of. I’d say I was a good kid other than the fact that I hated bathing ๐Ÿ˜ฉ seriously baths use to make me itch!! lol I had a routine…I sat on the edge of the tub and washed 1 arm because my grandma would always do the smell check!! Eventually she caught on to me…maybe the crystal clear water gave it away!!๐Ÿ˜‚  it’s safe to say %90 of my whoopings were somehow related to me bathing!! Thank God I grew out of that right ๐Ÿ˜ฉ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜ฉ๐Ÿ˜‚ 

I was never a popular kid and I’d do anything to make friends! I diagnosed myself with type 2 only child syndrome…main symptom is being socially retarded! lol I was willing to give away anything to gain a friend…snacks, toys, money, you name it!!! But I couldn’t deal with anyone for to long๐Ÿ˜ฉ one summer Ashley came down from Mississippi to stay with us and about a week in I was asking my grandma to tell her to go home๐Ÿ˜ฉ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜ฉ I just couldn’t deal!! I didn’t do well in competitive situations either…6th grade year I tried out for the dance team back then I was even a more horrible dancer than I am now…of course I didn’t make the team๐Ÿ˜ฉ๐Ÿ˜‚ I spent my entire homeroom period crying my eyes out๐Ÿ˜ฉ so my homeroom teacher ended up talking the dance team coach into letting me on the team๐Ÿ˜‚  and in high school I was the first Katrina evacuee to arrive…I’m sure they felt sorry for me so I was asked what I’d like to do…so I became a cheerleader ๐Ÿ˜Ž wasn’t good at that either but I was apart of the team!! 

Working was the first thing I liked and was good at!! I’m one hell of and interviewer and the idea of independence has always been exciting to me! 

To be continued….

Flight attendant Ellis…you’ve been assigned a trip๐Ÿ˜ฉ

Today I’m officially 2 months and 3 days in!! I made it through training, IOE, and my first couple of months and I still love the job (not %100 today the I’m a little tired) lol . This life is honestly everything I thought it would be!! โœˆ๏ธ 

So training was 3 weeks long…easy as pie and I had a cool roommate. The class was diverse men, women, black, white, 21-67 years old, etc. I finished with the highest GPA and got the award for best dressed (still not sure how I pulled the best dressed part off.)  we started with a class of 19, graduated 13, and it’s currently 10 of us left!! Now while training was a breeze, week 1 of actual flying was a fucking disaster ๐Ÿ˜ฉ the world had literally been placed in my lap and it was now my job to find a cure for cancer, end world hunger, and find Waldo…not really but that’s what week 1 feels like!! I second guessed myself for a second…maybe I’m just book smart ๐Ÿค” maybe I’m not meant to be a flight attendant in real life๐Ÿค” obviously those thoughts changed and I’m now an expert at serving 50 passengers in 12 minutes๐Ÿ˜Ž it’s definetly a job you have to get use to and may not be as glamorous as portrayed but still the best job I’ve ever  had !!! 

I’m 2 months in working on my 3rd vacation. I did Aruba my second week then Vancouver/Victoria a few weeks later…both were beautiful!!

Sandy and I at Butchart Gardens

Living arrangements…or should I say a college dorm on steroids!! Here’s how it works: you take a 2 bedroom apartment add 6 bunk beds to each room,  host a bunch of flight attendants , and call it a crashpad!! It’s not as bad as it sounds lol no one is ever home at the same time!! On average you’re off 11 days a month and most Of us travel or go home (or go to our parents house and crash on their couch) . The crashpad ends up being a really good place to vent…eveeyone basically has the same struggle!! My crashpad is downtown Newark so I’m a bus ride away from the airport and a 30 minute train ride from New York!! The girls are all nice for the most part and just like training it’s super diverse in race and age!! 

Dating ๐Ÿ‘€ …..end of paragraph ๐Ÿ˜ฉ Yeah, there’s kinda no time for that๐Ÿ˜ I’ve been on a few actually ….nothing to get excited over tho! I did manage to go cold turkey on my ex… No calls, no emails, no texts, I even went to Dallas twice and didn’t stalk him๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜ฉ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜ฉ be proud…be very proud! I definetly have my lonely days…or nights but I’ve got that covered!! Reminding myself about th extra sanity I have as a single woman gets me through everytime!! 

The downside is finances….how broke am I ? Let’s just say I made more working at a call center when I was in college ๐Ÿ™ˆ but that’s ok…I’m happy as shit and I’m not missing any meals!! Money was my ultimate sacrifice….I gave it up in exchange for some happiness!! Best thing I’ve done for myself in my 20s! To add to that I spent atleast half of my income on traveling before I became a flight attendant now I can get a roundtrip flight to Japan for the same price as a pair of converse sneakers…that’s a fuxkin win๐Ÿ˜Ž
Ok we’re descending….time to tidy up the cabin for landing…until next timeโœŒ๐Ÿพ๏ธ