The Things Money CANT Buy!!!

So nobody was going to tell me I was out here buying loveπŸ€¦πŸΎβ€β™€οΈ?? I remember when Mookie (my childhood best friend) moved next door to us…I was about 9!! We were doing the typical kid bragging. She had the Barbie plane but I one up’d her by having the Barbie Jeep AND the Barbie Boat!! She made an offer “let me have them and I’ll be your friend” so here I am saying my final goodbyes and crying my face off when my grandma spotted me and wanted to know why the hell I was crying 😩😭 “Mookie said she won’t be my friend unless I give her my Barbie Jeep and Boat” if you know me then you know my grandma and you KNOW she cursed Mookie tf out “fuck her you don’t need no friends ” πŸ˜©πŸ˜‚πŸ˜© I think that was the start of it!! I’ve given so much shit away for the sake of being liked/loved or having a friend!! But it just recently dawned on me that over the years I’ve been doing the same things with men and relationships!! In college there was Taj…I bought shoes, iPhones, etc , then there was Simon I bought plane tickets, guns, etc ….and most recently there was “B” I was actually about to add him to my flight benefits before I found out he really didn’t even like me….and this is after I got him gifts for Valentine’s Day and didn’t get anything in return!!
I honestly had no idea I was doing this!! My gestures have always came from a genuine place and my intentions have always been good!! The crazy part is these are characters of my mom!! She didn’t really know how to love anyone but she’d buy the shit out of some gifts!! I recognized early on that material things would never fill the void of companionship but subconsciously I’ve been filling voids with material shit!! I don’t regret the things I’ve given but it makes me sad that I didn’t realize early on how amazing my presence was….whole time I was the gift and didn’t know it!! πŸ’πŸΎπŸ‘ΈπŸΎπŸ˜Ž 

It’s so important that we let young girls know that they are gifts!! There’s no gift or amount of money that exceeds self-worth!!! There’s nothing she has to give because she is the gift of life itself!!! This needs to be said WE need to hear it, recognize, etc… I could have saved much damn money bruhπŸ€¦πŸΎβ€β™€οΈπŸ˜©πŸ˜­πŸ˜‚


Seriously…what are we??

About a week ago i posted a joke on Facebook asking when was the right time to ask “what are we” πŸ˜©πŸ˜‚ everyone  answered NEVER!!  So today I’m scrolling and I see a guy that posted a status saying the girls he’s been dating asked him to be her boyfriend but he declined stating that he needs to work on himself and finish getting his life together before committing πŸ€” about 20 comments later I determined that they’ve been doing couple shit…I mean the whole nine sex, dates, etc and the truth was he just wasn’t that in to her!! That’s makes me sad because I’ve been “her” before!! I look at it like this…if your job offers you a position that requires you to have a masters but you’re a few courses away and they know but they see the potential in you so they offer you the position anyway….you wouldn’t decline and say that you aren’t finish working on yourself !!
But there really is no way to get out of the grey area!! Sometimes the vibe in chemistry is perfect but you’re just coasting without a destination!! Titles aren’t everything but it’s great to know if I should be investing and building or just having fun!! I think that misconception fucks things up too…girls can def have fun and date without getting emotionally involved…things just have to be in black and white and the grey areas avoided!! 
I once dated a guy and we damn near lived together…he was either at my place or I was at his, we had movie night atleast once a week, gifted each other with things, and had “next level” sex….but when it came down to it I was crazy for being in my feelings when I found out I was just the homieπŸ˜©πŸ˜‚πŸ˜©πŸ˜‚ the truth is it was all my fault!! I never asked…I just assumed because things were so smooth…like I couldnt have asked for a better boyfriend except he wasn’t my boyfriend πŸ€¦πŸΎβ€β™€οΈ so basically you have to choose when you’d like to be crazy…in the beginning by asking “what are we” or at the end when you find out he’s just not that into you!! 
It’s very important not to assume that just because someone wants something that the want it with you!!! That same guy preaches the story of him wanting a wife and kids…and I played that role to the best of my ability only for it to not be what he wanted…confused?? Yeah me too😩 but that’s not the worse part!! When it was time to be honest and face the monster he created (I needed answers) he said that his reason for not wanting more with me was because my tattoos… “my family is really conservative” oh and because i moved from Dallas to New Orleans then back to Dallas…that’s a sign that I’m not stable😐 ohhhh ok makes sense…or not!!! But I digress😏 
I said all that to say…be crazy early on!! Lay guidelines, set expectations, have standards, and believe what he tells you!! You don’t want to end up like #hurtbae loving a man that obviously has no respect for you!! Love yourself so much that a guy has to battle you to get a little of your heart!!! Your relationship with yourself is the best example you can set when it comes to how you want to be treated!! 

Dear Future Husband

Dear Future Husband,
I hope that you are preparing yourself for me as I am preparing myself for you!! I’ve dreamed of you my entire life….and if you’re reading this then dreams really do come true!! I’d like you to know that I may be difficult, unintentionally of course. I have not yet witnessed love it’s pure form…I have practiced a few times but they weren’t you so it didn’t work! I’ve been a sucker for friends my entire life but I hope you’re ok with being my best friend above all else!! I promise to always laugh at your corny jokes and cheer for your team unless you’re a Cowboys fan…but then again I know God wouldn’t send me a Cowboys fan!! Lol I hope I find you while we are both young enough to have kids…it’s very important to me to have a few kids that have my eyes, your nose, my laugh, your charm, and probably your hair but we can decide on that part later. I like the names Bailey and Brody but I’ll take your input into consideration 😜 but before kids I’d like to travel with you…that’s when I’m my freest self!! The world has so much to offer and I hope that you are willing to take advantage of it with me!! I hope that your into doing dishes….I love cooking but dishes aren’t my strong point!! I enjoy kissing and cuddling and I WIll rub my feet on you when I’m cold!! I hope you enjoy art but also enjoy trap music!! It would be nice if you had a huge family my family is tiny so it would be great to get a feel of the huge family life!! Please choose mayo over miracle whip and be really into seafood!! I’m terrible with budgeting so please know that the family budget is all your job!! I plan on being a flight attendant for the rest of my life so I’ll need you to independent enough to survive when I’m away but dependent enough to need me when I’m home!! Oh, when we have kids please plan to gain weight with me…teamwork baby🀘🏾 I know that you’ll be patient enough with me to get through my bad days….as you’ve be patient enough to find me!! And when I say bad days I mean the days where my only child syndrome gets the best of me or days when I feel fat and I’m just not happy with anything or anyone πŸ˜©πŸ˜‚ I know relationships are 50/50 deals but understand that when it comes to driving that will be your job %100 of the time πŸ€·πŸΎβ€β™€οΈ If there is ever a point in our relationship that you feel like you want to see other people…talk to me I’m sure we can work it out or if not I can do different wigs, change my accent, and role play!!πŸ˜‚πŸ˜© I plan on being your biggest fan in all of your endeavors!! Although society has changed I hope that you still acknowledge gender roles!! I’m not really good at being dependent or submissive but by the time you get to me I’m sure I’ll have it together!! I have no rhythm so I hope you do for the kids sake!! When I fall asleep on the plane understand that it is your job to get me a drink and food…always choose the chicken option!! I look forward to connecting with you mentally, physically, spiritually, and emotionally!! I understand that your past is your past….but when you’re ready for me just be sure you’re done with them!! In my mind you’re so strong, so brave, so caring ,so bold….with just the right amount of sensitive!! I pray that we’ll be equally yoked. Do know that there’s no way out…there’s no quitting , giving up, giving in, or getting tired!! No breaks, no recess, no intermission….just consider me your forever fight!! I haven’t met you but I can already tell I love you more than anything in the world!!
With love, 

Your Future Wife 

Valentine’s Day is stupid…or am I just bitterπŸ€”

I’ll take bitter for 500 Alex πŸ˜©πŸ˜‚ this year is no different from any other year on Valentine’s Day for me!! I spent the day on airport alert and then I worked a roundtrip to El Paso!! I didn’t have an official valentine but I do kinda like a guyπŸ™ˆ lol Nothing major but I ordered a few things from Amazon that I knew he would like and just so happened (😜) to have it delivered on Valentine’s Day πŸ€¦πŸΎβ€β™€οΈπŸ˜‚ I think I made his day he wasn’t expecting it and I think he actually liked it!! I mean everyone likes to feel special on days like this (even if the won’t admit it) I finished my trip around 8:30pm and headed to the crashpad. Completely bummed about the day!! Between Instagram and Facebook and all the mushy shit in the airport I was second away from sliding in my exes inbox like “hey bighead, wyd?” πŸ˜©πŸ˜‚πŸ˜©πŸ˜‚  

I eventually linked up with “the guy” only to see there were no flowers, candy, or cardsπŸ€¦πŸΎβ€β™€οΈ boy was I devastated!! Even tho I had coached myself all day to not expect anything…expecatations still got the best of meπŸ˜©πŸ˜‚πŸ˜© I ended up showering and calling it a night!! 

I’m already coming up with my game plan for Valentine’s Day 2018…stay tuned😎

I think I’m all vacationed out….just kidding πŸ™ƒ

I spent the last week and a half of January  falling in love with Southeast Asia!! Finshed working a 3 day trip, showered, and headed back to the airport for nearly a day of flying 😩(after I had flown 5 hours for work)  4 hours from Houston to San Francisco then 17 hours from San Francisco to Singapore!!  Singapore was beautiful…and hot and humid!! I arrived at the hostel I was supposed to be staying which ended up being in a very sketchy area πŸ˜’ they didn’t allow early checkin…that ended up working in my favor lol I called an Uber and headed to an area that was a little less sketchy…Chinatown for the win😎 

The flight landed super early in Singapore and I was determined to beat jet lag by staying woke until atleast 8pm…I was in bed by 12 and ridiculously tired πŸ€¦πŸΎβ€β™€οΈ I spent the next few days half tired half exploring. Had some really good (and expensive) food and did a lot of walking! Singapore ended up becoming one of my least favorite places because of its lack of diversity 😏 and because it so expensive!! So I ditched and headed to Bali!!!

I started off by heading to Lembongan Island and it was a journey to get there!!

A ferry ride then a wagon then a little boat then another wagon😩 but it was all worth it!! This place was amazing!! Due to the islands size there are no cars on the island just scooters and hotel run wagons. There was so much beauty here!! The water the people THE FOOD!! lol I stayed at a little resort with villas on the water…which isn’t a norm for me…I’m the hostel queen😎 but hey why not!! The place was beautiful and relaxing but filled with family travelers😏 as a solo traveler this isn’t very exciting if you’re looking to link up and make friends. So my days on Lembongan island were spent relaxing and being anti social lol I got a massage to days in a row because the shit is dirt cheap!! A 4 hour spa day with 90 minute massage, facial, and body scrub coat me about $17 !! Amazing right? 

I headed to Kuta next!! Kuta is the city there’s a beach but it’s not the clean pretty beach…it’s a city beach!! Lol the hostel here was amazing and $4 a night!! I arrived early so I sat in the bar/common area and did what I do best….talk to random strangers in random countries!! Made a friend from Scotland, Austria, Morocco, and South Dakota!! After checking we headed to a local spot for lunch…an order of Nasi Goreng and a beer cost me 50,000 IDR the equivalent of about $3 ….I was in love!! β€‹


I spent the rest of my time in Kuta hanging out with my new friends at the hostel. Learned a cool ass card game and drunk a lot of beer!! 

Then it was on to the next city…Ubud!!

After a 2 hour $10 Uber ride I arrived in Ubud!! The hostel here was just as amazing as the one in Kuta but was $1 cheaper 😎 here I made friends and found my yoga boyfriend lol 

Ok let’s talk about aerial yoga…this was amazing!! Per usual I was horrible but yoga is always fun for me!! The studio was cool and the power was out in the city so it was actually a candle lit yoga session (how romantic 😜) I met some more friends lol 2 Beautiful ladies one from the U.K. that was studying in China and in Bali for holiday and the other was from Chicago…super cool to meet another American!! My time in Ubud was spent on the back of Yoga bae’s scooter, getting lost, or eating!! There’s a breakfast dish..pineapple pancakes but it’s not your traditional pancake!! It’s somewhere between a crepe and an American pancake and it was freakin delicious!!! ​



The not so fun part was leaving and getting back to the states😩 I see jokes all the time of people getting stranded while flying standby…the struggle was real!!πŸ˜‚ 

I ended up flying from Bali to Hong Kong to Guam to Tokyo and finally to Houston to get home!!! Talk about a struggle 😩😩😩 but I made it and the trip was amazing!! Bali holds a special place in my heart now…I can’t wait to see where the travel Gods take me next…until next time 😎✈️✌🏾

What is Normal AnywayπŸ€”

I thought I was a normal person living a normal life….until I told my story aloud!!

In my mind I’m a normal 27 that had “different” beginnings….apparently there’s nothing normal about me!! 

Born to teenage parents who were essentially products of their environment. I was born on my dads 17th birthday. Unfortunately he had gotten into some trouble a few months before and was  serving a jail sentence for armed robbery or something of that nature. I mean just imagine being 16 with your second kid on the way…I could imagine his back was to the wall and he did what he felt was necessary!! My mom had a few…or a lot of criminal dealings as well. Growing up the child of a drug addict gives you a different kind of tough skin I’m sure!! She too, to my understanding, did the best she could with the circumstances at hand! For a great deal of her life she sold drugs. I actually remember baby food jars being used to “cook up” crack cocaine using a hot plate!! And all the great shit I got as s kid from addicts selling anything for their next hit! 

So I’ve never really lived with my parents…there’s been times when my mom lived with me and my grandma but I don’t ever recall a time were it was just me and mom or me and dad. My grandmother assumed the role, and did a great job if you ask me, of being my mom! She stayed on drugs until I was about 6…it’s crazy because she still tells the story it’s like she just decided she had to change for me no rehab just prayer and a change of setting! We moved from Algiers to Marrero and things were uphill from there!!

Growing up is when I kinda felt different…all of my friends lived with their parents. And to make matters worse I was the only child by my mom so I really didn’t have anyone to relate, no one shared my struggle…that I knew of. I’d say I was a good kid other than the fact that I hated bathing 😩 seriously baths use to make me itch!! lol I had a routine…I sat on the edge of the tub and washed 1 arm because my grandma would always do the smell check!! Eventually she caught on to me…maybe the crystal clear water gave it away!!πŸ˜‚  it’s safe to say %90 of my whoopings were somehow related to me bathing!! Thank God I grew out of that right πŸ˜©πŸ˜‚πŸ˜©πŸ˜‚ 

I was never a popular kid and I’d do anything to make friends! I diagnosed myself with type 2 only child syndrome…main symptom is being socially retarded! lol I was willing to give away anything to gain a friend…snacks, toys, money, you name it!!! But I couldn’t deal with anyone for to long😩 one summer Ashley came down from Mississippi to stay with us and about a week in I was asking my grandma to tell her to go homeπŸ˜©πŸ˜‚πŸ˜© I just couldn’t deal!! I didn’t do well in competitive situations either…6th grade year I tried out for the dance team back then I was even a more horrible dancer than I am now…of course I didn’t make the teamπŸ˜©πŸ˜‚ I spent my entire homeroom period crying my eyes out😩 so my homeroom teacher ended up talking the dance team coach into letting me on the teamπŸ˜‚  and in high school I was the first Katrina evacuee to arrive…I’m sure they felt sorry for me so I was asked what I’d like to do…so I became a cheerleader 😎 wasn’t good at that either but I was apart of the team!! 

Working was the first thing I liked and was good at!! I’m one hell of and interviewer and the idea of independence has always been exciting to me! 

To be continued….

The not so glamorous side of things…

I did 2 cattle calls, 5 video interviews, 3 face to face interviews, and probably 50 applications to get where I am!! I’m here and the grass isn’t ass green as I assumed it would beπŸ˜“

Let’s start by saying I am absolutely in love with being a flight attendant…I couldn’t imagine myself doing anything else…ever!! Immediately follow that statement with I’m sacrificing everything to be here!! A few weeks ago I went into Victoria’s Secret to buy a sweater… checked out the price tag and it was $49!! I literally negotiated with myself about what I could live with out and finally came to the conclusion (made an adult decision) that I can’t afford to purchase a sweater that cost $49 on my salary!! That hurt!!! I sat and thought of the countless time I’ve spent $50 on food, alcohol, lottery tickets, and other bullshit that’s not essential for day to day living!! Basically as a flight attendant you’re guaranteed 80 hours a month…not much when you consider that average person works 80 hours every 2 weeks. We also get per diem…$1.85 per hour. Per diem includes the time we spend at hotels on layovers, wait time in between flights, and the time it takes for passengers to board and deplane!! So in uniform…unless the doors are closed I’m making $1.85 per hour! Adds up tho…during my best month I had about 311 hours of per diem. 

So what do you do when you absolutely love your job but you can only afford to eat Ramen and Wendy’s 4 for $4 when you’re kinda balling??? You continue doing what you love!! Ok enough money talk πŸ™„

Living arrangements…with all the notes info above it’s kind of obvious that you can’t afford your own placeπŸ˜“ so you crashpad while you’re working and the rest of the time…you live with your parents or you’re semi-homelessπŸ˜… unless you were really smart and saved a shitload of money before you joined the wonderful world of aviation!! Again, this isn’t as bad as it sounds, I like to think of myself as a profession nomad😏 and crashpads really aren’t that bad…my new one is quite fancy actually 😎 and it’s a lot better than living with normal people!! It’s like being a thug…if you don’t live this life you probably don’t understand it lolπŸ˜‚ so being in a crashpad allows you to be surrounded by people who understand your struggle, they’re just as broke as you are, and they probably had pretzels for lunch and peanuts for dinner just like you did😜 Ok so broke, semi homeless, and lonely πŸ˜“ unless you’re dating someone else that’s into aviation you’re probably not dating at all!!! Communication plays a huge roll in the whole dating/bonding thing and no one appreciates 4 hour delay in messaging!! You’re kinda always away when everyone is available!! So you end creating a new family everytime you start a 4 day trip…I know more about some of the guys I’ve flown with than I’d like to knowπŸ˜³πŸ™ˆ lol

Gear down….rear down!! (Landing gears down we’ll be landing soon…talk to you later!😘)